Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us (c)

Yes, I'm alive =)

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 13:25:55 GMT

It's obvious that my life got used to gorging my time pitilessly. T_T It's been almost 2 years since my last entry, and unfortunately I have been gathering my courage to continue writing here for much too long. What's brought me here is the fact that I want to create a new blog without typical 'diary'-posts, but just creative ones, socially important and ponderable. However, all (ALL!) usernames I longed for are kept T_T It's a disaster!

Now I'm in two minds. I know that I won't have time for this English LJ... Won't I? In summer, I will. But during the studying year... English, Italian, French... I also have started to teach English to young ladies (eh... only ONE lady, to be more exact ^____^')! But still... Frankly, it's not so difficult to write here myself, but it's not easy to read friends' posts (not because my vocabulary is too poor, not at all, but there's a terrible lack of TIME! x_x)

And the point is that I urgently need my _damn_beautiful_username_ for Russian entries -_-
Write them in both? -_-

Okay, let's see. Is there anyone left to read me? :D

I wonder

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 15:53:57 GMT

Is that possible to be both sleepy and happy at the same time?

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 18:14:33 GMT

Soul Calibur lovers?
Anybody? :)

Surronded By Memories (july '06)

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 14:56:48 GMT

The Day Of the City was great despite the awful weather. Studies are at least OK.
Plans, plans, plans...
No new photos :/
That's just an autumn time.

Angel Sanctuary snap :)

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 16:07:31 GMT

Cutie :D Just like we are^^

~~~
My hard-disk needs back-up:

Apostasy
Draconian
Lilitu
Solefald
Tehni
The heretic
Crown Of Autumn
Shape Of Despair
Demons of Guillotine (* Russian black-metal stuff, worth listening)

Mortum was kind to bring me that;)

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 17:17:26 GMT

Well, I cannot surf the Net too often. I've got no time - or money otherwise.
All I need to say is that my studying at Voronezh State University has started.
I'm the monitor ant it's hard to get along with our curator. She's rather wicked.
But nothing can distract me from my 'kawaii' Lord ^___^ Even a double peroid of damn Math!

Today I presented him a paper with our names written on it in Chinese ^__^ *that's a pity I hadn't found Japaneze ones* And hieroglyph 'love' painted red between the names))

If anyone interested, there is mine. Website mentioned;)
~Hope the picture is displayed correctly

~
The weather is already autumnal. There are rains every day I like autumn! No, truly. That's the best and most enjoyable time during the whole year. I feel myself warm and lively.

Well, have to go. I'm too hungry to stay here for longer. Hope I'll comment your entries soon.

The last shots of summer

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 18:01:40 GMT

I'm back again:)
I loved this summer.
August was sweeeeeet ^___^
I missed you all =)

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 20:39:47 GMT

There the journey will end
The place where my soul can strand
You are what I call Cockaign*
And you take away all my pain
The place where all dreams ally
Gimme wings and I'll fly

A world where all's in decay
The Dream when I'm miles away
Entrancing you're under my eyes
The floating that lightens my skies
Homeward bound I will return
I can feel my heart burn

You're always inside
Wherever I roam
In my heart this place I call home
You're with me wherever I go

(Edenbridge 'The Most Beatiful Place')

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Tomorrow his father is coming. It means they'll continue to build a house in the countryside and I won't see Lord for _unknown_ period of time.
I need to be alone for a day. Just because I'm almost unable to speak clearly. Only eyes are shining and lips are in smile ^__^

I'm puuuuuurfectly happy ^_____^

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 20:55:09 GMT

Sometimes I can't believe in happiness around me.
I consider it too unreal to happen.
But I feel it around me.
I feel.

And afraid (or 'don't care' as a variant) of speaking about the future.
Perhaps the end is near
Perhaps ieverything is in full swing
Perhaps...

... it is all just a start ...

~~
Level-up of relationships.
Enough experience to upgrade.
Skill of love-giving [master] :))

A Blah-blah-blah Entry

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 16:29:56 GMT

I had wanted to go roller-skating, but Mortum crushed this plan by offering to go to the city centre (thanks God it wasn't so boiling hot outside!). His is missing Julia and I've caught this wistful mood too =/

These days are harmonious and 'sweeeeeeeeet:)' I try to collect some thoughts in the head but all that I've achieved is making plans without fulfiling 'em:))

I need to finish cross-stiching (a birthday present). Yes. I need.

~
Well, in order not to be dull, I've made a translation (practice before studying! :D)

- <…> I have a photo which I haven’t shown. It was made it Moscow Zoo. There I’m standing with a red hare-rabbit in my hands.
- Indeed a ‘hare-rabbit’?!
- I don’t know for sure whether he was a hare or a rabbit. Animal itself… Living in a zoo, selling his body: for money you could take it, stroke and squeeze.
- Usual prostitution! – I laughed.
- Yeah… And for extra payment you could take a photo with him. There I did. And hid a photo. Never show anybody.
- Too risky ‘twas? – I made a fun. – The hare is naked and in black stockings?
- Hell, no, - Lida frowned. – The hare is OK. A well-fed, big-eared, fluffy dude… Simply, my face on the photo is too sweet. The happy snoot, almost childish…
- I got it. A defenseless smile, bunny in hands, baby talking – a shame! Never show whatever happens! Shall we?
- That’s it, - Lida sighed. – What does it lead to? We want to seem worse than we are?
- Probably no. Not exactly. Nothing about ‘we want’. Just embarrassing…
- Are embarrassed to show best of us,?
- Yep, that’s closer to the point.
- And how! We have realized at the same time , the we need to seem clever, ironical, prudent, cold-blood little bastards. But… Aren’t we that kind of?
- Sure we are not. We are tender, sentimental, sensitive, ephemeral pieces of internal structure. We are – oh jeez! – good and kind. It’s a shame to admit that.

*As you can see, a dialog in Russian grammar looks this way. I’m too lazy to put any quotation marks instead of dashes. Hope the text’s understandable anyway.

The text is shortened.

Today

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 16:36:47 GMT

Today I was on anime-party in 'City'club... and it cost double much it deserved. I appreciate work of leoparde and lanfir_meruru but if L2 PartyGroup had reduced the price to 100 rubles (instead of 200), more people would have come.

But after that.... oh gosh, I've found THIS:

Other purchases will fleece me of lotsa money, though it's worth it. Let me explain:

' In this dark neo-classical album from Russia, Anton Brejestovski's music speaks through Britain's best poets about human passions - love and beauty, death and sadness ' (c)

I adore their master-pieces and respect SOYUZ for releasing their albums (only French 'Prikosnovenie' did that, therefore it was impossibleto buy any CDs). Previously, the group put Tolkien's stories on music but now they turned their creative work to English-speaking poets.

I strongly recommend this magnificent band to those who like graceful and a bit melancholic melodies. Inna's voice is passionate and her manner of singing is overwhelmingly beautiful.

The official site: http://caprice-music.com/
And this song is the most suitable for the first acquaintance with the group (availiable to download) http://mp3.caprice-music.com/ss_sister.mp3

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 17:56:55 GMT

I hate PROMT. >___< It gives stupid translations every time I dare to use the programme.

My Italian friends, could you please help me with translation of Lacuna Coil's song? I like it so much and would appreciate if you gave me a clue what is this song about...
There are some words which I know or can guess but still...
Of course the English part doesn't need translation;)

Without Fear by Lacuna Coil

Se in uomo fragile
Nuove risposte tardano ad affiorare
Invisibili distante
E’ inevitabile
Inevitabile risveglio

Dentro di me non c’è niente
Di fede immobile più niente

Here I am
I’m giving myself to you
Without fear

Invisibili distanze
E’ inevitabile
Ricordano un addio per sempre

Dentro di me non c’è niente
Di fede immobile più niente

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 09:09:36 GMT

Well, darkdiary.ru isn't working now but I do want to lock in my emotions somewhere.

And I'm happy.
Amused and delighted ^____^
That's because .... *yeeeeeeeeeeep* :))
Well, okay, perhaps my destination is to study as hard as I can, but I feel that restoring our relationships with Lord after more than a year time-out pleases me much more... Nodoby thought it was possible. Even neither of us did :) But still...

I don't have a boy-friend ((I don't want _to have_ someone as we are not each other's property))
yet I'm with the person to whom I may give all this love and tenderness inside me
with whom I feel myself 'where i belong' and he does the same.

This is the harmony I've been longing for so long...
:)

And I almost forgot - Lord had caught a frog and presented me. When I was picked up by my Dad to take me home, the frog jumped off my hands and hid in the car:)) We had been searching for it after the midnight for an hour ^_____^ Daddy even left behind all his swearing about my late returning :))

Streets of Anticipation

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 16:38:09 GMT

I'll be there.
Only the fact that it was raining cats and dogs. Mom and me went shopping and found ourselves under the heavy shower *__*

'Love is not when you can kiss someone, but when you can help kissing someone' (c)

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 17:06:35 GMT

You are somewhere behind the rain.
But it doesn't really matter.

It's more than I can describe.
I love you, Lord.

*in every meaning of this word;)*

That's a suitable place to say 'forever'... is it?:)

~
Well... yes, I'm back.
I've passed all exams. (Russian. English speaking and grammar/vocabulary test)
That was tough!
And I made it! I'm in Voronezh State University now! And won a place to study for free and will have a scholarship *___*
Does it mean I can not only count in English but also speak it? :))

Now i guess my friend-list needs reading!

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 19:33:19 GMT

- Are you sure that you can learn how to fly with this way?

- No. I’m not. On the contrary, I suspect it to be a foolish pastime.

- And then what do you need this for? If you know it’s useless!

- How shall I say… because apart from this I know many other things and here is the one – if you have found yourself in darkness and see at least the weakest ray of light, you ought to follow it instead thinking whether it makes any sense or not. Perhaps, it really doesn’t. But sitting in the darkness doesn’t make any sense in any case. See the difference?

(Pelevin)

Translation is mine.

That's it

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 18:00:40 GMT

Just now I feeeeel slightly depressed.
And nothing else is crossing my mind.
Sorry.

Just passing by

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 20:05:19 GMT

~
It occured to me that while making love I become kinda sport commentator and a cinema critic. Something in the middle.
Succede. Quale impressioni avete?

We lost the most when we give up seeking (c)

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 16:20:08 GMT

Well... I've been some time out.
Firstly *yes, that is the first point!* today I had an English exam (speaking and reading). I am still trying to 'win' a vacant place (if any) in the Department Of Foreign Languages for free (Italian is brilliant, though I might save LOTSA money... And spend them on learning it anyway. I've made a promise ~_^ )
And I scored 92 out of 100. Above _all_ expectations, I must say! However, it was stupid of me to forget the part of a task. I admit. Also I mixed up propositions (HATE 'EM!!!). Otherwise the speed of speech is suffering. Though I can bet that my examinators almost loved me for my passionate enunciation ^____^ At least we made a fun and indeed an enjoyable conversation! I was told I'm following the discussion brilliantly. *proudly*
All in all, I'm not the one who is able to speak English that nice:), therefore I need to do __my best__ to get 100 of 100 in writing and this'll be over at 22nd.

~dreams, dreams^^

Jeez... This *is* a challenge! One of the most significant. I'm ready to take it - today I've proved myself worthy;)

And, yep, the second... ^___^ Um... My 'private' life is experiencing something veeeeery unusual ... Ivan almost shoked me with his 'revelations':) I swear he tries to look worse than he is, but finally I understood how much he needs __love__
Before he's seemed almost invulnerable in such cases.
But still...
He wonders why I'm staying with him this hard times through.

~ And lie together nearby the fire-place... Unforgettable!

~ And I re-read Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince :) I bought this book in Prague just a year ago. It cost a fortune coz it was Bloomsbury's. Yet i do not regret. And will _never_ try Russian official translation of the sixth one. It's always pathetic. I've compared the third book - throwing out parts of sentences makes it look like a 'free retelling' :(

The question!

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 21:23:47 GMT

How much do you pay in your country for a high education (per year)?

On average.
In $ or euro please =)

Glimpse of Hope

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 19:21:14 GMT

Yep... Which *is* the best... I wonder...

Forza Italia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 22:07:17 GMT

=)
I'm happy, happy, happy!
Gigi rocks))
And Italians are just like Russians: jumping, playing tricks, kissing *___* and taking the pants off from each other;)

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 08:46:58 GMT

Well, playing this Lego SW game I've unterstood that SW-slash is *not* for me. Any slash acceptable. But NOT SW.
Moreover, I *hate* ANY pairings except for a movie/comic-book/whatever established one. I'm sooooo total ... how it could be said... canonist!!! ^____^

*ahem:)*

I miss SW-fandom. I miss StarCon7 in Moscow. I missed it the previous year *we almost packed our things and bought tickets >___<*
I even miss my fan-fiction stories.
Dea Dia rocks =)

*ahem* twice:))

"All we born and die with the same untold entreaty on our lips: "Love me, please, as strong as possible!" In the desperate attempt to find this foolish, unrealizable love to ourselves, we are passing by the great things, which could have happened. Including real miracles. Yet we are of no concern to this as we are too busy - we are looking for those, who would appreciate and love us..."

Max Frei 'Sweet Tears Of Gravvy'
((translation by me))

FF

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 17:48:44 GMT

Finaly I watched 'Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children'. Jeez, it was *so* hard to find. But I did it! Yay-yay!
It's brilliant. Nope. BRILLIANT! Cannot help myself but do some screenshots and share 'em with you;)

Oh... Cuuuuuuuuute ^_____^

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 15:37:19 GMT

The IV-VI part is coming!
And I am on the second LEGO-episode -_-'